Yesterday was a busy day of learning, talking, planning. The Bone Marrow Transplant team at Children's Colorado is very well respected among their peers and around the country. There are so many reasons why. We have felt so very thought of and prepared for. Every person on the team knows Esther's case and her days. Her primary doctor is the head of the BMT program, but he knows her schedule and has spent well over 4 hours just communicating with us. They have ushered us into this very sobering portion of Esther's treatment with assurance and comfort. In the midst of all of this cancer treatment, it can be easy to forget how sophisticated and specialized is Esther's therapy.
The placement of the Broviac went pretty well. A broviac is basically an IV that doesn't come out. It comes out of the right side of her chest and has two different IV lines under her skin that flow into two different veins. One of the veins they like to use is in her neck, but for some reason that didn't work so well, so they had to use a vein under her collar bone. In the end it is placed well and was drawing just fine in the OR, but she did end up with extra incisions because of the difficulty of finding a vein that worked well. She also had a smooth bone marrow biopsy and hasn't been too sore this afternoon.
Esther was scheduled to have surgery at 9:30am this morning, but they called us yesterday afternoon to tell us her surgery was rescheduled to 7:30am. That meant we arrived at the hospital at 5:30am. It was nice to drive about 5 minutes, especially that early in the morning! Esther was pretty excited about her warm blanket. We texted pictures to my sister who was taking care of the kids. They thought our outfits were pretty smashing.
Tomorrow will be some evaluation of her hearing and heart functioning. She will also have her MIBG injection for her MIBG scan on Thursday. Anthony went home this afternoon but will come back tomorrow with the kids. They are so excited to visit Brent's Place. It's another good night to visit because it's craft night!
When I was checking in with Allen from Brent's Place he walked through the financial portion of staying here. Because of generous contributors to the foundation that supports Brent's Place, our stay is free. As I was talking with Allen about this and how amazing it is to be able to offer this facility to families at no charge he told me that right now is the time to "let us take care of you." He then proceeded to tell me about how each family gets one outing per month and that even though Esther will be in the hospital, he'll organize a birthday party to celebrate both her and Zinnia's birthday and will send a small cake to the hospital for Esther and have a big one here for Zinnia.
I was reminded of these promises in Revelation 21:5-6
God is making all things new. ALL things. Our big and little things, our hurts, our sin, our pain, our struggles. God can not lie and reminds us...these words are trustworthy and true. Write down, believe it! It is done, our assurance, our forgiveness, our eternity in Heaven, our cost to stay at Brent's Place. It is done and the water of life is given without payment.
5And he who was seated on the throne said, "Behold, I am making all things new." Also he said, "Write this down, for these words are trustworthy and true."
6 And he said to me, "It is done! I am the Alpha and the Omega, the beginning and the end. To the thirsty I will give from the spring of the water of life without payment.
We have done NOTHING to earn this gift of staying at Brent's Place, of having our daughter treated at one of the best transplant facilities in the country, with some of the most respected care givers. We could never give back enough to "make up" for the ways we have been blessed on this journey. We could maybe even it out monetarily but the effect on our hearts, the love we've been shown here and along the way from our family, friends, and strangers, the depths of it all could never be repaid.
As it is with Christ. We can not earn His favor, His forgiveness. It is a GIFT, it is waters leaving our every recurring thirst satisfied. Water none of us could ever buy. While this journey is so, so, so wearisome, God is faithful to give take care of us. He's faithful to take care of you. We have to stop trying to earn it or feel like we've done something to deserve it and just let God take care of us.